PT>2 for today

I have recently talked to a few friends and i told them that i honestly do not care if i go to prom anymore. After i have done some much since the start of senior year, but now i do not really care. They ask me why, is it because i do not have a date, (which i do not) is it because i do not have the money, (Yeah right, ballin) or what is it. I tell them that it is because I had blown prom up so much taht when my plans started to fail, I do not care anymore. I do not talk to the guys as much anymore, all they can talk about is their girls and personally, i think they are acting like a bunch of morons, Do not think that i am hating, kind of glad i am single, the college stuff takes up alot of time. BUt is still sucks because the guys that i wanted to like rent a limo with, and things like that, have not been talking to me lately. So it is like, i just do not care anymore. Also, about the date, the guys i do talk to, say they can get me a date for prom, but the reason i was looking forward to prom is because i wanted it to be the night that i showed people how much i have changed in the past year. I wanted to be the night that all the people that have known me all throughout high school would take a look at me and say, damn, i never though he would have changed, or damn, is this the same fatass that came to Verb freshman year. I wanted to do these changes on my own without anybodies help. SO if i were to go with a hook uped date, i am no longing doing things on my own. I am conforming to what people think I am, which is a loser that cannot get a date. But the people that know me know that i am picky, and do not just ask anybody to go with me anywhere unless i really have a connection with them. So, unless i find somebody that i connect with, i do not care. I just want to kick back the rest of my senior year, go out to meet new people and have fun. I do not care about anybody else who does not want to talk to me. They want to do something, call me up and i am there. But I do not care about why is this person being an ass, it does not matter. I am gone in a couple of months, I am going out and having fun. Reading is fun, been doin alot of that lately. well, I still think i might go to prom, just because of my last post, i have had a few failures along the way, but anything is possible, so i am not giving up.