FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!! But i am still stuck at home.

i am no longer going to school. But what am i doing, playing xbox because i have nothing to do.

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!

yes, my finals are over. School is over, i am free for two months. But then, i have to go to summer school. Damn so much for that. I thought i was free, but i keep on getting pulled in.

studying

no time to talk, studying, mike is going to comment saying something like you suffer becasue you study.

Why

why do people work so hard in life to obtain things that are going to make them happy, only to get them ripped away from you when you die. IS it to impress somebody, or because everbody tells you to work hard. That you need to always work hard to get alot of money to be happy. But now i really see that all of that does not make you happy. And that working your ass off(excessivly) is only going to make you feel worse in the long run. I said excessivly because you still need more for food and the neccisary stuff. Or maybe it is the kind of work that you dedicate yourself to. Because if you really think that money is happyness, then you would not mind working your ass off for money. But i are starting to see taht i do not really care that much about money. So i think. What Can i do that i find satisfing that i am willing to work my ass off for. People say that if you do good deeds, you go to heaven, so they do everything the bible says and pretend to be perfect, as if they are scared. THey are scared of what happens if they do not go to heaven, so i do not see why it is fullfilling to be good out of fear.So i said that if i decide to work and do good, it will not be out of fear. I started to think, think alot. To the point that i started to think that what is the true meaning of life. Like if it was some type of cruel game. That we are ment to suffer. But then i though. I do not know how i came up with the idea, i only remeber that i was feeling really down when it hit me. A teacher. if you are a teacher, you teache people things that will help them in life. and then they pass what they learned on, and so on. So the knowledge that you passed on is never gone. so it is like if your effort was not in vain because you keep on helping people even after you are gone. I guess i found my answer. Now the question is, have you found your answer?

New Update

I am going to study this weekend for finals and i have nothing to tell as an update so once again i have nothing.

My space

I recently got a myspace account for the hell of it. I never used it, but as soon as i started, i started running into people that i hve not talked to since Jr. high. that was cool, but as soon as i started to wanter arounfd, i noticed that some people really take my space really seriously. I said how can somebody be so addicted to something so sensless and stupid like myspace. Like you are really going to meet somebody who is not a total asshole or a slut. I said what kind of addiction is that. but then i remembered that i am addicted to the internet and said "that is how you become addicted to something that is pointless" Damn. i am a loser. i need a life, and something to do like Vasquez and Dizzy.