clippers game tommorrw

i got ticks for 2morrows game. i am going with my sister, this should be fun. besides that everything is shit.

UCLA

so i went to Riordan yesterday, it was fun, my presentation is better thtna expected, i also got to finish my project for duran, that should be very interstimng. it is gointo be funny. anywasys, i have to sleep.

college update

Just got accepted to UC riverside. 7 for 7 on college admissions.

Gamerscore Challenge

Bro. Rich

Rest in Peace. YOu will be misses.

Fuck, so much on my mind

I have been trying to do so much, I have to just calm down. I feel like i am Going to blow up. I have been thinking about the past too much again. I am trying to get myself to say fuck you, to everyone else, and just worry about getting my things done. Fuck everything. BUt I keep on working hard, trying to shoot for something that i do not want, or is it that i do not know that i want it. I said that i do not want to have to regret things, so i have applyied to alot of schools that really know nothing about. If i do not get accepted at LMU , i do not care where i go. But i feel that apps have become a priority and my class grades have suffered, and for what, sending out apps for schools that i do not even want to go to. But I still do it. I break my back and cannot figure out why. Is it because I feel pressured by other. I think it is because if i apply, at least I have a chance, I never know what opportunity might present itself. People tell me to think positive, you never know who might accept me. But others tell me, to be realistic so that i will not disappoint myself. Fuck... Iam really confused. I need sleep, but I know that i am not going to until it is 3AM and i am done with the app.

quote

If you aim for the moon, but miss, you will still land amongst the stars. This is deep

UCla

filling things out for ucla, the sadthing is that i will probaly not be accepted.

I need help

Just got b ack from the gym and i need to get right to work. Damn. i swear i am going to shoot myself.

strawberry sunday Results

0-21, talk about a shitty night. i do not know how to explain it so i am not even going to try and expalin it. Just got to get back to work and do what i got to do.

strawberry sunday

tonight. This should be interesting.

paintball

I just went paintballing, practicing for tournament. My main gun broke down before i got any play time. so i had to use my backup. but it was a good day out. Sucks that i did not go to formal, but that is like whatever. besides that, nothing new expect more college stuff starting tommorow morning. well laters.

yeah

no school tomorrow. Mardi Gras was good. and i have just heard back from Dean of LMU, wish me the best. well, laters.

lalala

so still busy as hell. I have to finish three apps by tomorrow. At least i am going to the mardi gras festival. that should be fun. i hope.

busy

when i am i not busy now a days. On friday, everyone is going to formal, and i have nothing to do, so i do not know if i should go cruise, fill out more apps(or save them for saturday) or go practice paintball because i want to compete in a tourney in march. i will decide later. and i got about 30 pages and i am done with fight club. great book.

i am working on financial aid

so, i have been working like crazy, stock market stuff, financial aid and app. and make up work, man, good thing that we get out of school tomorrow. well tune in tommorow for an update.

Fight

So i was supose to have a fight today, but due to unfortunate circumstances, I was not able to. That sucks, so now i am stuck doing my work. WEll it has to be done.

yeah it is on

Saturday, i finally get a match again. Me vs. David aka frosty, Mr Olympic, my trainer. Set for three rounds. winner gets braggin rights and dinner. I am ready. lets do this.

work

sucks, but it has to be done. i am really down right now. i cannot figure out why. but ii have to keep on goin

no!!!

i guess i really do not have a date for formal, fuck that sucks. shit gotta find someone soon. and 5 guys are getting free rides from my class becasue they play football.

burned out

i had a head ache and was really sleeoy today, have no way of explaining it. I was checked out by a milf at the gym today, taht was cool, and pienda went to the gym wit me and chris. besides that, it was just a normal day/

reliving my childhood/a new light

so my mom had to go to my old elementary school to do service hours and what did she bring back for dinner. tostada boats.!!! i use to love those things when i was in Elementary school. The new light is that i am acutally going to dedicate myself to school now. i am still going to go to the gym, but more dedication and better time managment skills are going to help me get ahead. I am also not going to go to the gentlemen's choice anymore. I decided that I have other things to worry about and that is just one more thing on my mind. so i am not going. I still have to go to prom though, so i still need to find a date. anyways i got to go to the gym, and about that. I am now at 205 pounds, trainer is afaid that i am going bulimic so i have to start eating, plus i personally do not want to get under 200 pounds, so it is time to lift double time and get bulky. total goal is 215 lbs, well built. Do not care about waist size, i am at 34-36 now. in september i was at 46 so i was fluffy. laters

edit:clarifying prom

JUst to clarify the prom deal, she did not back out just like that. things happened and kind of expected her not to go, but the reason i even mentioned it on my blog is because i was mad because of the way she told me. She sent me a message on myspace. COme on, that would hurt/offend/do something, to anybody. she could have at least called. but anyways, just wanted to slarify, i have no idea who might read this, after all this is the internet.

good weekend

even though i should have been doing work all weekend, i still have, and even though i did not train, in 4 days, it was a fun weekend, i went paintballing yesterday, and i didnot get hurt so that is always fun, and today, i went to go see the Groovaloo at Calstate LA, people should go check them out. I am still on a search for a date for feb 16 and of course prom. Anxiety is kicking in because i really need a date. o well. see you tomorrow everyone.

something to read

If you get what you want and you're still not happy, you've spent everything and gained nothing. It's better to be the person who gets murderded thant to be the killer and be tormented with anxiety.

Damn, great fucking day!!!

It has been a while since i put up a blog post, i have to do alot of homework. i had a shitty day at work, I have to do alot of homework due tomorrow, i have to finish a college essay for LMU< and i am praying that they will still accept it. Their is a semi-formal dance at my school on the 16, and i do not have a date, and speaking of dates, my prom date just backed out on me right now and i have nobody else to go with what so ever. Damn, great fucking day.