so much for my perfect streak

I got rejected for Berkeley,USC, and UC Irvine. That sucks.

hello

been about a week since my last post. stock market competition was this weekend, came in second. I also got accepted to Marist college. make my record 12-0. I have also been getting my grades up. This is great and all, but I still have no date for the prom. Everything seems to be going my way except that. Prom is about a month away, and i cannot figure out how to meet new people. I am still not talking to many of the guys. This sucks. But still working out and getting bigger, do not even recognize myself anymore. so i am going to see what happens.

work

go to work tomorrow, have alot of work for school, but UCLA presentation is done, just have to practice and present on saturday, palnning what to do after, maybe a movie, or bike ride or something. buy too work.

2 more

just got accepted to UC Davis and UC Santa Cruz.11-0 on acceptance.

been about a week

since my last post. Congrat to Mike and Tabernacle on the success of their last episode. Also, i got into LMU, which is great, now i got to see how to afford it. I am getting kind of worried about an old friend, wish she would just talk to me so I could see what is making her suffer, She is going through alot a from the sound of it, but i do not know what is wrong. I do not think i am exagerating, but people tell me i might. all i know is that I pray for her, so that she can be safe.

College update

just got accepted to SOKA University. THis brings my total to 8 acceptances with 0 rejections, hope this trend continues.

Fuck this shit

I am still looking for a prom date. I thought that one had come to me, but i think that it was just a cry for help and it is not going to happen. Fuck it.

A break

I just finished my college financial aid stuff, so i have a little bit of time to just kick back now. I am going to kick back and sleep. BUt not before going to the gym. I am going to the park tomorrow, should be fun, and after that, i have to fight Frost, that should be interesting. A and congrads for Mike on winning the FOX essay contest, he at some award show that is going on tonight. Lucky bastard wrote a story based off of one of our friends, my story was better MIKE, J/k but at least now we both know that we both get really good sory ideas. Well have to go to the gym Laters.

PT>2 for today

I have recently talked to a few friends and i told them that i honestly do not care if i go to prom anymore. After i have done some much since the start of senior year, but now i do not really care. They ask me why, is it because i do not have a date, (which i do not) is it because i do not have the money, (Yeah right, ballin) or what is it. I tell them that it is because I had blown prom up so much taht when my plans started to fail, I do not care anymore. I do not talk to the guys as much anymore, all they can talk about is their girls and personally, i think they are acting like a bunch of morons, Do not think that i am hating, kind of glad i am single, the college stuff takes up alot of time. BUt is still sucks because the guys that i wanted to like rent a limo with, and things like that, have not been talking to me lately. So it is like, i just do not care anymore. Also, about the date, the guys i do talk to, say they can get me a date for prom, but the reason i was looking forward to prom is because i wanted it to be the night that i showed people how much i have changed in the past year. I wanted to be the night that all the people that have known me all throughout high school would take a look at me and say, damn, i never though he would have changed, or damn, is this the same fatass that came to Verb freshman year. I wanted to do these changes on my own without anybodies help. SO if i were to go with a hook uped date, i am no longing doing things on my own. I am conforming to what people think I am, which is a loser that cannot get a date. But the people that know me know that i am picky, and do not just ask anybody to go with me anywhere unless i really have a connection with them. So, unless i find somebody that i connect with, i do not care. I just want to kick back the rest of my senior year, go out to meet new people and have fun. I do not care about anybody else who does not want to talk to me. They want to do something, call me up and i am there. But I do not care about why is this person being an ass, it does not matter. I am gone in a couple of months, I am going out and having fun. Reading is fun, been doin alot of that lately. well, I still think i might go to prom, just because of my last post, i have had a few failures along the way, but anything is possible, so i am not giving up.

do not tell me what is not possible PT.1

I have always been told that their are alot of thinks that will not happen, so do not count on it. I have always been told that things are not possible. THat is just plain bullshit. The only time that something is not possible is when you give up. THe only time things are not possible is when you do not stand up after you fall. The only time things are not possible is when you do not have the will power to try and keep on going. This can be applied to anything, from school, to talking to a girl that you supposedly do not have a chance with, as long as you try and do not give up, anything is possible. Remember that, i have overcome alot in the past 8 months and i have had as many failures as victories, I have lost aquantances, but i have gained friends that will be around for much longer. That is great, their are alot of things taht i still want to do before i graduate, hopefully i will be able to do them all. I know that i am thinking very positive right now and I need that, read blog above to learn why.